I think that I avoided writing the last two days because I didn't want to accept the fact that this experience is coming to a close. Jonni keeps telling us that this is not the end, just the beginning, but I still feel that twinge of fear of something being over.
It is easy to feel effervescent and connected when you're in a room with 20 some odd, highly intelligent, highly conscious humans, discussing concepts of connection and wisdom and all this yummy stuff. What I guess I'm most nervous about is integrating all of this information in my day to day life. Like... am I going to fall off the band wagon once I get home and mindlessly fall back into my old routine?! I really hope not.
I guess now I have a new (and very powerful) network of humans who can keep me accountable and grounded when I'm feeling off kilter. I just love all of this information and want to keep soaking up more!!
Last night after we wrapped our final day of lecture filming, and my heart felt like it was splitting at the seams, but we finished with a fun group photoshoot with an amazing photographer, with music floating through the room, and it helped lift my spirits.
One of the girls wanted to bring us to a thrift shop around the corner, where I loaded my arms up with as many funky pieces as I could hold. I tried everything on, and despite the lure of 80's dresses, and leopard blouses, I settled on a pair of tan vintage levis. Photos to come soon!
A group of us wandered around Brooklyn, with a rain cloud looming heavily overhead, until we came across a Spanish wine bar. After the rollercoaster of emotion that we've all experienced the last ten days, we all agreed that the importance of wine was extremely necessary. We gathered around a large wooden table, and unpacked the concepts that we've been taught, how they related to our lives back home, and were also able to discuss more intimate subjects, like relationships, sex, fears, and insecurities. Its amazing how these fears and insecurities can separate us from one another, and on the other side of the coin, are experiences we are ALL having, yet so afraid to expose.
2 bottles of wine, and an abundance of mushroom gnocchi, burrata and squid ink later, we called it a night. Over 3 hours had passed, and Caley and I ventured home. It was about a 30 minute walk. Our friendship has solidified so much more than one can ever expect from another human throughout this process. We were able to completely dissolve the barriers between us, things we realized and even those we didn't. The comparison transformed to uplifting support. The competition turned into a deep excitement to collaborate.
I think through this whole process, one of the biggest takeaways is about how we can start to relate to one another as a SHARED HUMAN BEING EXPERIENCE. To move very far away from comparison, and separation, and truly, deeply, and honestly connect with ourselves and with each other. I don't think it's a crazy idea that humans can live in peace and harmony with one another. And through this specific technique of meditation, we can so easily bridge that divide.
If you're reading this, and if you've ever felt distant from the people around you, or disconnected from yourself, from that place of true love for YOU, than I urge and encourage you to please meditate. You can start today, right now! You don't have to be a certified meditation teacher to experience being and connection. This is not an ad, this is my honest advice on how to better every aspect of your life. Download the 1 Giant Mind app and commit (TO YOURSELF) to take the 12 day Learn to Meditate course, and then continue on and do the 30 day challenge, and make this a regular habit.
Don't take it from me, validate these words for yourself. You are worth living a fulfilling, prosperous, loving life. Do it for you. And if you can't do it for you, do it for me.
I love you. I love you. I love you.