It seemed like everyone came into the studio this morning feeling a little deflated. Doing this level of spiritual work is freaking confrontational. I mean, we're digging up all kinds of limiting beliefs, and stirring up negative thought patterns, and examining the functions in which our own minds operate and having to be very honest with ourselves about how and where we are not fully embodying these practices.
But Jonni, being the absolute master that he is, instantly could sense our lack of morale, and somehow managed to lift all of our spirits. Nothing a little understanding of what was happening and why we were experience what we were experiencing and a little pranayama couldnt fix.
I found it super interesting to learn that in this specific technique, the way we set up the conditions for the mind, allows it to release stress that has been built up over lifetimes. So it makes sense that we would feel agitated or irritable. We're digging deep people!! But I like getting dirty and facing those demons and showing them who is boss. I don't want to live life through fear based ideas of who I think I should be according to anyone else. I've spent too many years of my life that way, and now that I know there are other options, I am taking every opportunity to be the light I know exists.
I also learned what the ideal routine to incorporate meditation is, and we're going to try it out tomorrow.
Wake up, exercise, shower, AND THEN MEDITATE. This way, your mind has a chance to differentiate from the sleep state, to actually being awake. This means that when you transition from being awake, and active in your mind, there is a clearer distinction from that into the state of being, aka meditation. And from there, you re-enter the world, with your eyes open, having accessed that amazing, juicy place, and can operate through your day through that new lens!
After spending all day in the studio, a group of us walked to a Vietnamese restaurant near by and stuffed ourselves with spring rolls and pho. Having had a little soup left over, I put it in a little takeaway container in a brown bag to walk home with. About 6 blocks from home, my thigh started to feel a sharp pain, like little needles when you're holding ice up to your skin. All of a sudden, the soup container burst through the bottom of the bag and all over me and onto the group. I guess it had been slowly seeping out onto my thigh and the wet soup mixed with the 30º weather was making my knee numb!! These are experiences I don't have in LA, and I have SO much respect for anyone who lives anywhere with seasons.
Anyways, its 9:15pm here, and I am in bed. Hoping to get to sleep early tonight, because (like a crazy person) my alarm is set for 5:45am and I'm heading into another full day of filming tomorrow!!
I love you all.