I couldn't get myself to sit in front of a screen yesterday. My brain has been firing, and restructuring in ways that are so profound that I needed a day of rest to sit with it and digest.
This is powerful and potent information. The kind of knowledge that changes lives. This kind of knowledge, if taught and practiced regularly, can change the world. I literally have no doubt about that.
Yesterday's lecture was a little more practical, and after spending the first few days discussing and uncovering all sorts of abstract concepts, I found myself more drawn to doodle in my notebook than able to focus.
We learned that one of the functions of the mind is Witnessing. This is something we can all practice (although it is highly suggested that we first establish a foundation in our BEING. After all, we are human beings that have strayed from the being to all the doing.)
It's definitely easier to act as a witness when outside of the 'normal' parameters of life. I'm not at home, in my routine, falling into the mind-numbing patterns that I usually do. Having this perspective shook me up. It started an entirely new conversation in my mind.
"Am I living to my fullest potential? Do I have deep and meaningful connections in my life? Am I truly embodying the messages I am so passionate about conveying? Am I allowing myself to live out of habit and laziness and fear instead of truly going after my dreams?"
These questions are all rocking my foundation!
I'll be honest (with you all, and with myself). I spend way too much time sitting on the couch, staring blankly at my phone. Whether I justify it to myself as 'looking for inspiration' or trying to make new connections is irrelevant.
When assessing my life from this outside perspective and perhaps noticing things that I want to change, adjust slightly, or get rid of all together, it is so important to remain in a state of being. One that is compassionate, and kind, and definitely not judgmental. I don't need to chastise myself for recognizing these habits, instead, I can acknowledge my new found awareness that has revealed some insight, which ultimately means (I hope, let's find out) that I can move towards or start living a more purposeful, and fulfilling life.
Look, when I'm writing these posts, I want them to be raw, unfiltered, unedited. When I write in a diary, I don't go back and check to see if things make sense. I write to get it out of my mind. These thoughts, ideas, revelations. So they don't get stuck in the cyclical tornado of the mind.
So if I ramble, and go off on a tangent, I'm not that concerned.
It is my hope that if you're reading this, it might spark an intrigue to investigate your own life and habits and relationships through a new lens.
We are always evolving. Re-creating ourselves. Discovering new findings in the folds of our minds. Making new connections. Shedding old layers of habits or beliefs.
Be open. Be curious. Be loving!
Ok, I'm finally going to share some photos with you all!! Here they are:
I'll be back on the computer tonight with a recap of today!