It's 10:45 pm here right now, and I am not sure what I want to write right now. I've been up since 5:45 am, and fully engaged since the moment I woke up.
It went something like this:
I had 2 very vivid dreams last night, both of which I was fully conscious of my participation, and was very excited for the alarm clock to go off, even though it was at the (butt) crack of dawn, because in my dream I was about to get arrested and trying to accept that fact that I had to take responsibility for the crimes I had committed.
So when that alarm went off, I literally sighed out of relief. Anyways, the first thing I did was meditate. I sleep with my phone in airplane mode and at home am usually in the habit of checking my email and opening instagram before I even get out of bed. So I'm making the conscious effort to meditate before I get distracted by the outside world.
Made some bulletproof coffee, and did a mat pilates class with Caley in our pajamas - half of which I just laid on the floor imagining myself being in good enough shape to actually complete the entire class.
We headed to the studio right at 8 to review the material being covered today.
This is so full on. There is so much to absorb and process and discuss and its like all of this unraveling of ideas that our whole society has been agreeing to for generations of total disfunction and connection thats just like... woah. Mind = blown.
Its so simple, straight forward and makes so much more sense than the craziness that we experience and are told to accept as normal.
Not only are we having these consciousness-opening mind orgasms due to the sheer brilliance of the information Jonni is so eloquently sharing with us, but we are being filmed from 8am - 5pm and have to be actively engaged, dialed in and present and focused and remember to kind of look good, while feverishly taking notes.
But its so juicy. I want to savor every moment. I feel like its already going too quickly and I want to hit pause so I can just sit back in the expansive and deeply connected space of the witness and take this all in for the indescribably important experience that this is.
Man! I'm sure if you're reading this out of context I probably sound like I've just done a ton of drugs and am spouting out some nonsense that challenges everything that we've been raised to know as 'true'. (Not even by choice, just by existing in the amount of lack of awareness there is in the world today. Ie, the experience of separation from the whole, discrimination, greed, etc.)
Well its 11:06 now, and my alarm is set for 5:45, but I think I said that already. (See, delirious) and that doesn't leave me with as much time as I would have liked to get my beauty rest on. And I know I promised some photos, but these words are all I can muster for now.
If you're reading this, will you send me a message on Instagram or leave a comment so I know its you, and tell me what you are gathering from being an observer to my experience?
Good night and I love you.