TRANSFORMATION

There’s a lot going on.

Los Angeles has been somber. The sky is heavy with smoke and loss.

Shootings. Innocent people’s lives taken from them.

Fires. People displaced. Animals frightened. Land scorched.

Its been a week.

Its caused me to look deeper into what is really going on.

If there is so much turmoil outside of and all around us, how can I heal some of the turmoil within?

Is there a deeper meaning to this chaos?

I don’t believe in coincidences, and this is what I’ve found.


It is Fall. According to Chinese Medicine, each season is associated with an organ, and each organ is associated with its own emotion. Fall is of the lungs, which embody the emotion of grief and sadness. Maybe this is all arising to teach us how to emotionally develop our response to grief.

The lungs are all about letting go. Cycles. Each breath that comes in, must then be released. If you are dealing with issues of attachment, an inability to let go, it will manifest into a feeling of alienation, or overwhelming sadness.

The air quality is questionable, but the best way to strengthen the lungs is to take deep breaths. Become aware of how you’re feeling and how its linked to the quality of your own breath. Are your breaths short and shallow? Are you feeling anxious? Overwhelmed?

Can you lengthen out your breaths? Soothe your own nervous system by listening to the sound your breath makes. What are you holding on to? What can you let go of?


We are also in the midst of Scorpio season. Although Scorpios are most commonly associated with the scorpion, the Phoenix is also one of the symbols of this zodiac sign.

Transformation.

Born of the ashes.

Rebirth.

Scorpios are considered the darkest of the zodiac. Often linked to death. But not only death, rebirth. Renewal. Cycles. Letting go. Like scorpions in the animal kingdom, that heal wounds by shedding an exoskeleton and growing another, Scorpios are masters of regeneration. They are alchemists who can take the energy of death and ashes and transmute them into something life-giving.

So what are we alchemizing?

There must be a need for this great disaster so that we can be reborn from these ashes that are now falling from the sky.

If astrology doesn’t resonate with you, perhaps you can take a look at yogic philosophy:



Tapas. They are one of Patanjali’s niyamas, or self observances. It is the practice of self-discipline. We all have habits or patterns in our lives that are less than ideal for reaching enlightenment or at least becoming a better version of ourselves. We also can identify with how difficult it can be to change those, sometimes very deeply embedded patterns. We are met with resistance. Usually it is an inner resistance, but I’m sure you’ve felt that manifest physically as well.

Tapas is putting yourself through the fires of transformation in order to create lasting and positive change. It is engaging your will in the face of friction.

But remember, without friction, we would get nowhere. Think about how difficult it is to move forward when you’re standing on ice without any traction.


The first law of thermodynamics, also known as Law of Conservation of Energy, states that energy can neither be created nor destroyed; energy can only be transferred or changed from one form to another.

Which is just another confirmation that although this is a time of devastation, of our physical land, and loss of lives, its just an opportunity to transform. To wake up to what is happening.

Just like our bodies are a communication system, through hits of intuition, and even sickness and disease, the Earth is also able to communicate with us. She is telling us, urging us to pay attention to her signs. And right now, they are quite large and rampant.

Let us move from separation and blame and victimizing ourselves, and unite with ourselves and one another. Let us throw our own limitations and negative patterns into this fire and emerge transformed. Alchemized.

What in your life can you let go of?

What can you alchemize?

Who are you becoming?

1.25.18 // In the air

Once more I am 34,000 feet in the air flying through the sky at 380 miles on my way home to Los Angeles. So I didn't manage to write every single day while I was away, but while I would have once chastised myself, I now am letting myself be ok with it. I tried my best, and next time I will do better. 

This experience was full on. It was a lot more work that I initially imagined, and it ruffled my feathers. Jonni spoke about how meditation is like the shaking of a tree, releasing all the old leaves and fruits that no longer need to be attached the the branches. I felt myself go further inward, with a clear and honest light, peeking into my fears and insecurities. 

As much work as I do on myself, and I really try to practice these rituals daily, there is still a lot left to be done. I am not perfect by any means. I still have insecurities, I still struggle with being vulnerable or allowing my needs and desires to be known. But I'm a lot less worried now than I was before. I have been reminded that we are all humans, and to be a little more compassionate with myself. 

I came to realize that I was not fulfilling my potential, in many areas of my life. I had to step away from my 'norm' to gain a new perspective. I spend too much time on my phone, avoiding myself. I spend too much energy on other people, instead of nurturing my own passions. I procrastinate, and I internalize. But I am only human. And I have the willingness to change. And that's all I can ask for. I trust that the universe will provide the people and the path that I am supposed to know. I just have to do the work. And for me that is meditating twice daily for 20 minutes. 

This is the commitment I am making to myself. 

So I can be a better human. So I can remember who I am and why I am here. So I can remain in a state of awareness, instead of reacting. So I can love myself more deeply, so I can love others more fully. 

I meditate so that I can embody the practice. So that I can show people the effects on a real life human - me! To show them that this is not some farse, or quick fix. This is a life style. It is so possible to feel energized, inspired, connected, and 100% blissed out every day. We just have to choose to live that. And commit to the habits that enable that connection. 

Hence, mediation.

This experience has inspired me to create something new - a movement if you will. Called the Happy Hearts Club. It is a gathering of people who want to connect. Who want to live consciously and make a positive impact in the world. 

Caley and I will be hosting weekly meditation groups in Los Angeles, and come April, we will be teaching 3 day courses to LEARN HOW TO MEDITATE. We are both so excited to get this going, and can't wait to start! There is a hunger for this community, this connection, this understanding, and I want to be able to provide and hold space for those who are seeking. 

We are in this together. We are sharing this human experience as one. We are individual expressions of a common thread that ties us all together. Lets support each other. Lets lift each other up. Lets be here for one another, and allow others to be there for us. 

You're not alone. This is something I have to remind myself of often. 

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1.24.18 // Day 10 // How time flies

I think that I avoided writing the last two days because I didn't want to accept the fact that this experience is coming to a close. Jonni keeps telling us that this is not the end, just the beginning, but I still feel that twinge of fear of something being over. 

It is easy to feel effervescent and connected when you're in a room with 20 some odd, highly intelligent, highly conscious humans, discussing concepts of connection and wisdom and all this yummy stuff. What I guess I'm most nervous about is integrating all of this information in my day to day life. Like... am I going to fall off the band wagon once I get home and mindlessly fall back into my old routine?! I really hope not. 

I guess now I have a new (and very powerful) network of humans who can keep me accountable and grounded when I'm feeling off kilter. I just love all of this information and want to keep soaking up more!! 

Last night after we wrapped our final day of lecture filming, and my heart felt like it was splitting at the seams, but we finished with a fun group photoshoot with an amazing photographer, with music floating through the room, and it helped lift my spirits. 

One of the girls wanted to bring us to a thrift shop around the corner, where I loaded my arms up with as many funky pieces as I could hold. I tried everything on, and despite the lure of 80's dresses, and leopard blouses, I settled on a pair of tan vintage levis. Photos to come soon! 

A group of us wandered around Brooklyn, with a rain cloud looming heavily overhead, until we came across a Spanish wine bar. After the rollercoaster of emotion that we've all experienced the last ten days, we all agreed that the importance of wine was extremely necessary. We gathered around a large wooden table, and unpacked the concepts that we've been taught, how they related to our lives back home, and were also able to discuss more intimate subjects, like relationships, sex, fears, and insecurities. Its amazing how these fears and insecurities can separate us from one another, and on the other side of the coin, are experiences we are ALL having, yet so afraid to expose. 

2 bottles of wine, and an abundance of mushroom gnocchi, burrata and squid ink later, we called it a night. Over 3 hours had passed, and Caley and I ventured home. It was about a 30 minute walk. Our friendship has solidified so much more than one can ever expect from another human throughout this process. We were able to completely dissolve the barriers between us, things we realized and even those we didn't. The comparison transformed to uplifting support. The competition turned into a deep excitement to collaborate. 

I think through this whole process, one of the biggest takeaways is about how we can start to relate to one another as a SHARED HUMAN BEING EXPERIENCE. To move very far away from comparison, and separation, and truly, deeply, and honestly connect with ourselves and with each other. I don't think it's a crazy idea that humans can live in peace and harmony with one another. And through this specific technique of meditation, we can so easily bridge that divide. 

If you're reading this, and if you've ever felt distant from the people around you, or disconnected from yourself, from that place of true love for YOU, than I urge and encourage you to please meditate. You can start today, right now! You don't have to be a certified meditation teacher to experience being and connection. This is not an ad, this is my honest advice on how to better every aspect of your life. Download the 1 Giant Mind app and commit (TO YOURSELF) to take the 12 day Learn to Meditate course, and then continue on and do the 30 day challenge, and make this a regular habit. 

Don't take it from me, validate these words for yourself. You are worth living a fulfilling, prosperous, loving life. Do it for you. And if you can't do it for you, do it for me. 

I love you. I love you. I love you. 

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